Running away? Not!!!!!!

As time running, I was surprised it was already December. I feel like I'm getting 'busier' in my house since the school holiday begins (really?? nahh..I spent my time busy for watching tv). Monsoon season had arrive (people said) but I think its raining almost every single day this year. That's just an obsolete excuse used by parents to avoid bring their kids out for vacation besides saying busy, wedding feast, bla..bla..bla..(what am I babbling about?)

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Along the season which looks gloomy and emptiness, I don't feel like letting myself to see or contact with anybody (friends, ex-supervisor, foster family and relatives). Perhaps this is normal to those still unemployed hehe.. Seriously I feel guilty but at the same time I missed them so much (they don't feel the same way..). The reason I'm trying to avoid to see people because some of them the keep asking me the same question whenever we met. I just don't like it and hope they give me some time before I prove it without saying it. 


I have nobody to tell what exactly I want to have or to do. Only Allah knows what I want and He knows whats the best for me. Yet I'm still seeking for it.       


p/s: sambil taip dan tonton cerekarama, aku sedar walau apa jua keadaan aku sekarang aku rasa aku insan paling bertuah dimuka bumi ni. Dia telah berikan aku ibubapa yang terbaik dalam hidup aku. Sehingga kini aku masih memilikinya. Terima kasih ya Allah..;)